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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 15:02:36 GMT -5
"I know I'm not in your head, but I do somewhat understand what your going through. There are days I can sit for hours and try to figure out what is going on up there, then there are others there isn't much to figure out," she said evenly, trying to calm him down while also telling the truth. "Would you please stop apologizing every time you snap, I'm not going to hold it against you or get mad about it," She said with a smile.
This morning was fine to her, so Peter was having a few problems, it was normal. He was a new wolf and she was going to help him become a better one. She really wasn't holding anything against him because he didn't have control over everything like an experienced wolf did. She was fine with getting snapped at, and explaining anything he needed her to.
Seeing Peter smile for only a moment and weakly before turning away she went over to set her hand on his shoulder again. "You'll be fine, your new so everything is going to be new to you. I really hope your mind get's clearer, and it should get better and you should stop having dreams that make no sense," She said softly to him, trying to get him to smile more. He really was nice and she wasn't blaming him for snapping still, he was having a bad morning and probably would have shifted completely had she not woken him up.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 15:35:04 GMT -5
"It's nature and habit, alright?" Peter replied, not exactly snapping. "Snapping at others isn't something I usually do so it's not like me. I know it's the wolf but other people won't know that unless I tell them and really...I really don't want to tell anyone else."
He really didn't like this. Snapping at people, it just felt so strange and not like him. Even though he knew that it was actually him just a part of him that was new. Just trapped inside like most things were. It seemed like to him that all the anger, frustration, and pain he was always able to push away was now in the wolf's control. Forcing those feelings to the surface and cause this.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 21:16:24 GMT -5
"Okay, I just meant with me but if you prefer to that's fine," She said backing off, she didn't want to push him to snapping again. She really was walking on thin ice until she figured out what exactly made Peter mad.
She wasn't going to treat him like one wrong word would be the end of the world but she would try not to fall through the ice. If she did fall through though she would just climb back out and keep going till she fell through again, it didn't matter to her. She didn't know what to ask or say so she was basically staying quiet for a few moments.
"Anyway, you got any training or anything planned for today?" She asked curiously. She was ever curious and she wondered if she could help him with anything today. She was also just trying to change the subject to something that she could actually talk about and not be afraid that he would completely snap at any second.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 21:27:07 GMT -5
Peter would've apologized after Isabelle spoke, but he held his tongue. It would do no good. Just bring upon the wolf for snapping eventually. Hearing her question after a few minutes passed he shrugged. He just woke up! He would've pointed that out but he knew that would do no good.
"I don't know." Peter answered as he looked at his hand and then averted his gaze.
What was he going to do today? Probably the best training would be to control it. Though he should also buy some new clothes. Considering he still needed to replace the clothing and shoes from yesterday.
"Guess I should buy clothes and stuff...considering everything." Peter added.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 21:54:55 GMT -5
Izzy knew he just woke up but she didn't really have anything else she knew to ask. She didn't want him to snap, that wouldn't be exactly good if it got out of control. Actually he had been doing a fairly good job of controlling it when he snapped.
Izzy nodded, that was fine, she did wonder why he looked at his hand and looked away for though. "What was the glance at your hand for?" She asked letting the curiosity take the lead, which she didn't always do.
If he wanted to practice she was fine with that and would probably be there to help and make sure that he didn't end up doing harm somehow. If he was going to do something else she could meet up with him whenever he wanted to practice and help him test strength and anything else he wanted to so he could keep it under control.
"Okay then, whatever you want. If you want to work on anything later we can pick a place to meet after you go shopping," She suggested, not wanting to push. Actually she could use some shopping to, she was running low on cloths again and could use more t-shirts and jeans if that was what he was deciding to do. It wasn't like they were going to get a mission.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 22:04:28 GMT -5
"I was just thinking on if I should practice shifting or something else." Peter replied.
Should he really though? Practice the shifting here? No...it wasn't wise, not at all. People would come to the door of his room wanting to know if something was wrong. The sound of cracking bones would make anyone curious. Hearing cracking sounds from bones would make anyone think something was wrong and they'd try to get in. The woods was really the only place he could try it at without too great of a risk getting caught.
But should he spent the whole day practicing it? After all, she did say that it wasn't wise to change too much. He didn't doubt that. He really should just take a break for the whole day. But...that wouldn't really do much good...in the control department. Losing himself to thoughts, a pair of ears appeared on his head and they twitched.
"Well you did say it was best to take a break from time to time. Not to do it every day since that isn't really wise." Peter replied.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 22:35:25 GMT -5
"Oh, okay," She said. And fell silent as she suspected Peter started to think.
She wondered what he was thinking about but she was going to not ask for once and just stay silent. She kept her mind away from shifting but thought about how good it was to have a friend who was a werewolf, and it was a fellow agent to. She smiled lost in thought as she let him stay in his own little world.
She didn't know how much time had passed when she saw ears spring up on top of Peter's head and she ended up laughing again. He really needed to be careful about his thoughts since he did unlock that gift of his.
"Until you get it under control you may end up shifting when you don't want to," She said, keeping her eyes glued to his ears. If he acted all confused at what she said she would eventually tell him though her laughter. She felt bad for laughing but wolf ears on a human Peter looked kind of funny.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 22:49:13 GMT -5
When she started laughing, the right ear slanted while the left stayed up. Confused clearly by her laughter. Wait...she mentioned shifting...why..? Looking around at himself, he didn't see anything changed. So getting up, he went over to the mirror and then saw why. A sigh left him as he hung his head for a few moments. Well that was dandy. Putting his hands to the top of his head, he flattened the ears down and had them disappear.
"True...all the more reason I guess....to not stay here huh?" Peter asked.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 23:05:44 GMT -5
Seeing his ears slant in a confused way she laughed harder, still feeling guilty for doing it but it looked so weird! It wasn't till he got up and saw the ears in the mirror that her laughter died down a bit.
"S-sorry for laughing, it just looked so weird and funny that I couldn't help it," She said as she finally quit laughing all together.
After a few moments of catching her breath she finally answered Peter. "Well, if you want to keep people from knowing it would probably be a good idea to not stay here. Neither of us are likely to get any cases anyway," She said slowly, making sure that she didn't stutter anymore. She wasn't going to lie and say it would be a good idea to stay here, and she always had the excuse of going for a run. Peter could just say he wanted to go for a walk in the woods and clear his head or something. After everything he'd been through, if Gill did tell the highers, he could probably get away with more time off. At least no one knew it was her who changed him, that was still a relief.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2014 23:21:54 GMT -5
True...staying here didn't hold many good outcomes, nor did he have many good reasons to stay. It was pretty much a freeish place to live and the closest thing to work. That's why he accepted the room here. Peter didn't want more time off. He joined the PIDA to help people and supernaturals. Course...his first mission and he ruined it greatly.
"Guess there's not much choice.." Peter said without turning round. "Let me guess, that would be due to what we are? Or is it that they just think we're unstable?"
Peter looked over his shoulder at Isabelle as he spoke before he turned round and leaned against the mirror and thus the wall.
"Well you're much more stable than I am, so you'd most likely be able to do your job with more confidence then I'll ever get." Peter added, starting to ramble a bit. "Kind of ironic. This place is suppose to help the supernatural live with humans but the fact is, it's just turning into a prison for em just like Guil said. Deemed too dangerous they might just kill us or stick us on medication just like they did to Guil!"
Pushing off of the mirror he started to take a few steps away from it. Putting his hands against his head and run his fingers through his hair as well as his hands. He was going into his worrysome self though....kind of more of a dangerous version.
"Terrific....I can't even do what I joined up here to do!" Peter said as a laugh left him. "I lose everything as a kid due to some accident that doesn't really feel like it was a accident. And the only thing I could think of to make up for it is to join a place to help everyone and it turns out....THEIR PREJUDICE!! Just..stinking...GREAT!!"
Peter turned round real fast and slammed his hand into the wall. Due to the hard material of the wall, it merely suffered being dented when his hand slammed into it. Snapping? Perhaps.....sort of. Over worrying? Very.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2014 0:05:14 GMT -5
"Peter there's a lack of missions, we're going to get one eventually. They don't think we're unstable," She tried to reason. She had no idea how much this was going to work but she was going to try anyway.
She listened to what he was saying not paying attention to his actions as much. "Peter, you'll be able to do your job. It isn't that bad. If it was honestly a prison they would have us all locked up, as it is we're at least free to do as we want, as long as it's in the limit of the law. Guil was put on the medication because he attacked you, and it could have been worse. Besides that he is a hell hound with the instincts of one, no one else here is,"At least I think no one else is she said in her head.
He seemed to be going back into his worrying state but it seemed worse, he seemed more angry than worried. She watched him run his hands through his hair and listened to what he was saying. She was wincing as his voice raised a bit at the end to a yelling volume that hurt her ears.
As his fist hit the wall she flinched back, that had to hurt. He hit it hard enough to dent the hard metal and that was a feat. She gulped and actually went to sit on the bed. When his anger died down that hand would really hurt though she wasn't sure how much.
"Their not prejudice, it's hard for anyone to get a case. It's not just the supernatural you know, and most people who work here aren't normal, even if they are considered human," She said, why did she ever have to say what she did. She was panicking slightly while sitting on the bed, if she couldn't get him to calm down then what? Getting him to the forest would be nice but she didn't know how far she could get with a seemingly angry Peter or if he would be willing to shift and go for a run to blow off some steam. She took a deep breath to calm herself for whatever was going to happen next.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2014 0:28:22 GMT -5
Lack of missions? That...that did make sense. Even in his anger he could see that. Though he wasn't fully convinced, not yet at least. Was Guil put on the meds all because of him? Was it just that incident that resulted in the hellhound having to take medication? Sure the medication made Guil more well behaved it seemed and...the two did get along. Though....the hellhound probably hated him.
"I screwed up my first mission really bad. All because I lost track of the days and never told anyone about what happened two months before it." Peter replied to getting a mission. "I can't even remember what happened and GUil sure as death has every right to go to the highers and have me sacked!! Or worse!"
Peter always obeyed the laws and learning new ones was something he was fine with. Though...would the wolf obey them? Would it break them and end up ruining his life and everyone else's? Heck...everyone would see him as the wolf even though it was him it was just... No way to put it. Lowering himself to the ground, he took a seat and put his forehead against the wall. What was he doing? Reacting poorly to what Isabelle said before? Probably...probably.
The pain was starting to hit his hand as he sat there, though he really didn't care. What should he say? Isabelle said to stop apologizing to her every time he snapped so...this was him snapping wasn't it? She didn't want him to apologize. So...w..what should he say that wasn't 'sorry'?
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Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2014 1:00:46 GMT -5
"There isn't a real way to know if Guil told anyone or not, there isn't a reason to panic about it till you know for sure. It's been a couple of days, if Guil was going to tell the highers he would have already told them more than likely and you would have already been in trouble," She comforted, glad he seemed to be calming down a bit.
If he was scared about something with his wolf he could ask, she would always answer as best she could. She didn't think everyone knew, she didn't have any reason to believe more than her, Guil, and Peter knew. She wasn't worried though she was afraid that if Peter stayed like this much longer he would become a nervous wreck who had to stay in the woods. He needed to calm down and stop worrying so much for how things could be when he didn't know for sure.
"For being new to this your doing great," She said as she went to sit beside him again. She did notice that he managed not to apologize this time and she smiled at him. "Your learning fast and doing better than expected with your newly discovered ability," She added, despite her laughter she really did think he was doing well, some of the things that changed were just a bit strange and funny. "Peter they would be idiots not to give you another chance and another mission if Guil did tell them," She said, as far as she knew he hadn't done anything to hurt anyone or changed anyone so he was fine.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2014 1:15:34 GMT -5
No...there wasn't anyway to know for sure until it happened. This whole thing had him scared. He was scared of so much about himself now...even though he did say to her yesterday that he was scared of himself and what he could do. Hence why he had asked for her help with controlling the wolf. He was still scared and his worrying was just making it worse. He wanted to stop worrying yet it wasn't happening. His worrying was growing even though he had made progress the other day.
He...was doing great? Peter glanced at Isabelle through the corner of his eye as he turned his head a bit. How was he doing great? Heck he got stuck during trying which was understandable but...but how was he doing great?
"And what makes you so sure?" Peter asked. "On all of that."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2014 1:58:49 GMT -5
"About Guill telling, well like I said you would probably already be in trouble. About you doing great, well, nothing could have happened or you could have changed accidentally two or three times already," She said with a thoughtful tone. Izzy was telling the truth, it could be worse.
As for the PIDA being idiots if they didn't give Peter another chance, well she had to think on how to put that one for a moment. "As for the last thing I said about the PIDA being idiots if they didn't give you another chance, well, your an amazing person and anyone would be stupid not to give you a second chance," She said with a smile at Peter while looking at him with shy eyes. This was the first time she had been completely open with how she felt in a long time. She wasn't sure how Peter would take it either, really it was just a friendly remark to her. She was happy just being around Peter and that was strange to her in itself.
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