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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2014 21:16:25 GMT -5
"Honestly it's fine, it happens. Even in human form your werewolf form is going to want control, it will be worse around some people more than others," She advised feeling a bit like a teacher. "Also certain emotions can have more of an effect on it, even if they aren't yours. Like when I snapped at you something in you seemed to snap back right? Did that really seem like something you would do? If not that's what it was," She continued, she was just giving him tips, things she had learned even if she was born this way it still seemed to happen to her.
She thought that this would be good to him, he had finally told her what was wrong! Even though it was three months later and he had to know she was the one to do it to him for him to tell her he still had finally done it. Sure she was sad that it had been her, still a bit upset about that fact to, it still wasn't as bad as not knowing.
"I'm honestly not sure where to start, I don't remember what exactly I did to get control of my strength," She said sadly. hummmmmm.....what to do? she thought with her head tilted to the side. She had no earthly idea where to go from here.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2014 22:07:53 GMT -5
Wants control huh? It certainly did want it when he was stuck with Guil's rage toward him. Course that was just after he awoke from the full moon night and Guil handled things bad.
"Yeah, I felt like something else was trying to get through." Peter admitted. "That's not really like me. Usually it takes more than a snappy tone to make me snap."
He held no ill will to Isabelle for being the one who had done it. If anything, he knew it would be wrong to blame her. Hearing that she wasn't sure on what to do at the moment, he though tit over as well. The strength was part of him now and really, he needed to control it.
"The...the strength is in a way tied to the wolf still, even if I'm like this right?" Peter asked. "The way to control it....is to control the wolf right? We can start there. Controlling the wolf will help to control everything else right? That's where we can start, you know how when it comes to everyday life."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2014 23:07:28 GMT -5
"Okay, well that's one thing explained," She said with a small smile. "If you get any other questions in the future feel free to come find me. I will try to answer any that you have," She said her smile growing.
She was still thinking on the question of how to handle teaching him to control his strength. She listened, it wasn't a bad idea but it would be difficult. If he pushed his werewolf side away to much he would more than likely be in pain every time he changed just like his first time.
"You can only control your wolf so much without pushing it away, and honestly everyone I have see do that were in so much pain every time they shifted that they couldn't function the next day. It's easy to control your wolf on the days that are the furthest from the full moon to, since you can't change all the time especially," She said, she could try to help him control it in every day life. "In everyday situations it can depend on your mood to how easy it is to control your wolf, if you have a day where everything goes wrong than your going to have a lot more of a snappy personality and your wolf is going to seem like it's right under the surface, or that's my experience," She said thinking about when she snapped earlier. She then paused to figure out how to put what she wanted to say.
"Take when I snapped as an example, I was panicking and my wolf took that chance to bubble closer to the surface, now that I'm calmed down it's a bit easier to push her away. Main thing is try and stay calm in any situation," She said thinking that this would be good advice and easier said than done. "The hardest part is trying to act normal and do this since you don't want everyone to know," She said as she leaned back using her hands and arms as supports. She didn't know what else to say at the moment or how to work on her advice. She thought about it and smiled at Peter, maybe he would talk and plan out a way with her.
"The only other thing that I could think to do is to run and train regularly so that you tire yourself, and therefor your wolf, out," She said after a few moments, that's all she had ever done to control her wolf so she didn't know what else to tell Peter to do. This is when she finally let her mind rest for a few moments and let Peter throw in anything he hadn't gotten to in her pauses.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2014 23:27:29 GMT -5
Peter was in pain every time he changed, when he was forced to change. Though two days ago was worse. He tried to fight it, so Guil wouldn't find out but he ended up learning and that yielded bad results. As Isabelle started to speak in response to his words, he listened carefully.
"Well...that explains why two days ago was so bad...." Peter muttered, though loud enough for Isabelle to hear.
It was making sense, all of it was. Emotions were usually part of any transformation. After all, Guil was so different now with the medication and it seemed to be effecting his hellhound form. When he first meet Guil, the hound wanted to kill an eat him and no matter what he did made it worse. The fight kept getting worse but Peter was able to survive it.
"I get it." Peter said when Isabelle was done explaining.
Tire himself out....none of his training really did that. What else could he do? Turning his emerald gaze away from her, Peter sat there. Trying to figure out what else he could do to tire the wolf out. Though a different thought came to his mind as he turned his gaze back to her.
"Isabelle, when you change outside of the full moon it's still you right? Not the wolf in control?" Peter asked.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2014 23:40:13 GMT -5
"What did you try to do two days ago?" She asked wondering why it had been worse. Besides Guil finding out she didn't know what he had tried to do to keep that from happening, and that was probably what had been so bad.
"Good, I don't know what else to tell you right now. You have a strong will and that's a good thing for a werewolf to possess," She said with a smile, she had a feeling he would do almost anything to control his wolf.
His next question brought Izzy up short and she ended up looking at him questioningly. "Yeah, why?" She asked curious as to why he had asked. "I can remember everything when I chose to change too, it's just a different form but still me," She said adding on and still curious about why he asked. She wondered if it was a random question or if he actually did have a reason.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2014 23:59:37 GMT -5
"It was the full moon two days ago. I....I forgot about it and I was on my first mission ever." Peter answered. "Guil was there and...I tried to fight it. To try and keep it in so Guil wouldn't find out but Guil still learned."
It really did backfire, he couldn't remember anything that had happened. But he didn't think he had hurt anyone. Course Guil had chased him that whole night. And that kind of did harm to Guil due to his knee. Strong will? Him? Well Peter could see that, considering what he went through. But that will wasn't always strong, it was weak before. The friend he had though helped with that as well.
"Isn't that another way to learn to control it?" Peter asked. "I mean, if I can willing change into it then in a way it would give some sort of insight."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 0:15:45 GMT -5
"Okay that had to hurt," She said with sympathy in her tone. Trying to push down a shift like that couldn't have been painless. She had tried it, just to see how long she could put it off, when she first came to this world, when she woke up the next day it hurt horribly to move and she vowed never to do it again.
She took a big breath at his next words, she knew that it was unlikely that he was like her, that he could change on command as well as having to at the full moon.
"It kind of is, it's different being in your werewolf form while in your right mind. I don't even know if it's possible for you, it's rare but I guess it's possible. Most of the time any 'made' werewolf can only change when their forced to, that is to say on the full moon," She said putting air quotes around 'made', she was referring to the ones who were bitten and changed instead of born that way. She was acting more mature than she had before, she guessed that it was having something to focus on, someone to teach, that caused that reaction to happen. She was willing to let him try, and even help him in any way that she could, if he wanted to.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 0:21:57 GMT -5
"It did, course.....after waking up it hurt even more." Peter replied.
As Isabelle answered, Peter was starting to doubt his thoughts. Perhaps he wasn't going to be able to change at will? After all, he didn't doubt Isabelle's knowledge since she was a werewolf her whole life. Granted a different one though.
"No reason not to try. After all, there's always a chance to prove it wrong." Peter said with a smile as he stood up. "So...simple stuff would be best to try first. If you're okay with trying to teach right now."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 0:57:03 GMT -5
"It will, sadly,"Izzy said wincing. She shook the thought of that away as she thought about their new topic.
It really was unlikely to her but again it was possible. She thought about how to explain how to shift on will. She didn't really force it as much as think about the shift, think about being a wolf or werewolf.
As she was thinking a chain reaction occurred and she started to shift into her wolf form. Did I just get smaller? She thought to herself then looked down to see paws. She let out a big breath, and looked up at Peter. "Not always great to be like me, this is what it looks like when it gets a little out of control," She said as she sat down. Great now what? She asked again inside her head. She rather liked this form and let out another huff of air. "You sure you want to shift on command?" She asked curiously. Of course she knew what could happen if he did have that ability and he stumbled on it, it surprised her that he hadn't already if he did have it.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 1:03:08 GMT -5
To his surprise, Isabelle shifted into a normal looking wolf yet...it seemed like that was accidental. Bending down, he waited for her to notice. Sure enough she did. Was he sure about this? Who knows what would happen if he did this and actually succeed. Would it make him feel more in control? Would it actually help him? Or would it do the opposite and do so much more harm to him and everyone around him?
"I feel like it will help. No doubt Guil told the highers what I am now by this point and who knows what they'll do with me." Peter answered. "But...if I can prove to them that I'm trying to control it, to not cause problems. Then...then maybe it will help."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 1:19:01 GMT -5
Isabelle let out a low surprised growl. He saw what could happen if he succeeds, if he thinks about his werewolf form at all it could cause him to change.
"Fine, I'll try to help. Be warned, at first it'll be hard but over time and with practice it'll get easier, after a while even thinking about that form will cause you to change. That's what just happened to me, I was thinking about how to instruct you to change and thinking about my forms and this happened," She said evenly. This was his warning if he still did what she said and thought that doing this would help then it was out of her hands and not her fault if he lost control anymore.
"Okay, try and clear your mind and only think about shifting into your werewolf form. Remember the pain or try to imagine what it looks like, anything along those lines. You can't force it, you have to relax. It also probably won't come easily or quickly so be patient," She told him, using the best words she could for how she shifted. She didn't know if this was different for everyone or if it was the same, she had kind of figured it out on her own. She stayed sitting in her wolf form, she had no idea if this would work but it was interesting to try.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 1:28:21 GMT -5
Taking a seat on the ground, he was confused by the low growl Isabelle gave off. Had he upset her in some way? That wasn't his intention. Though as she started her warning, he pushed those worries aside and listened to her. Just thinking about it? Well that would certainly be a surprised, he'd have to be careful but it still meant some control. Nodding his head to show he understood and accepted the warning as well as risks.
She then started to explain well...instruct him on how to do this. Okay, so clear his mind and just think about the shifting. Taking a deep breath, he exhaled and closed his eyes as he sat there. Doing his best to clear his mind, push all worries and fears to the side and make his mind go blank. Once he thought he had that, he tried to remember the pain and anything else. So far, nothing was happening but he didn't react. Just focused as he sat there, not trying to force anything. Nothing was happening and that was fine, he was just starting out after all.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 1:56:58 GMT -5
She watched Peter sit on the ground and she left him to think silently. She breathed softly, nothing was happening but this was his first time. She couldn't believe she had shifted by accident, this was the first time in a while she had done that but she was thinking about her wolf form. Oh well it seemed to be easier to relax in her wolf form.
She went from sitting to laying on her stomach as she waited for something to happen, perhaps he didn't have the ability? She yawned quietly and lied her head on her paws. She couldn't believe she had actually been pulled into this. Oh well, it was her fault that Peter was a wolf in the first place.
She looked up at him, a questioning look in her eyes as she waited for him to say something. If he gave up that would be it, if he sighed and said he would try again later she would still try to help. She didn't know if he could do it but she would still offer support.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 2:06:23 GMT -5
He could remember the pain but it wasn't doing anything for him at the moment. He was still sitting there, trying to relax. Course it was hard to relax in the position he was in. A sigh did leave him as he opened his eyes and adjusted his position. Sitting up more straight than he currently was. Course Peter's gaze noticed Isabelle staring at him and all he could think of in response was to give a nervous smile back.
"Practice makes perfect." Peter said, pretty much going to try again.
Taking a deep breath once more, he pushed his thoughts aside as he exhaled. Perhaps he didn't have the ability and was trying for nothing? Some would think that but that wouldn't stop him from trying. After all, it took him years to be able to train one eye to act normal and allow for him to shoot. The pain was easy to remember, though focusing on that didn't seem to do anything. For a few moments, he remembered how the change was going when Guil and him had gone over to the imp. Granted his body had tensed up before hand though as Guil was laughing at the imp kicking him, Peter had looked at his hand.
He could see the bones starting to shift as well as feel them. Claws at the end of his fingertips, course that was all that he had seen since he hide his hand behind his back. He hadn't noticed yet, though the same hand currently was actually being affected. There was a strange feeling in it, as if there was something wrong. But was he still focusing and didn't pay it any mind. Course, he did pay it mind when a few bones cracked and the pain shot through his hand. Causing Peter to lose focus as he opened his eyes to look, though the hand had gone back to normal. That didn't stop Peter from moving it around to see if anything was different.
"Okay....think I had something there..." Peter muttered.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2014 2:16:36 GMT -5
Izzy nodded, it was fine that he was going to try again. Maybe he could try thinking about something different? She thought about suggesting it but he had already closed his eyes and was concentrating again.
She let her mind drift, still trying to pick up any stray memories that her werewolf had. It was hard, and unlike the changes she allowed she did have to force them to come. She started to doze off when she got a shard of memory that depicted a werewolf. She could tell that she had been in the woods and she didn't think that was her fur color. Since when did her werewolf form let another werewolf run with her?
Izzy yelped in surprise as she heard a few bones crack. She looked over at Peter, that hadn't come from her. "You think? Peter you have the ability!" She said in surprise as she looked at his hand which was where he was looking, it looked normal now though she was sure that if he was looking there that was where he started to change at. "What broke your concentration? You would have had it!" She exclaimed still surprised and a bit shocked.
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